Date: 10 May 1999 03:07:08 -0000
Message-ID: <19990510030708.11584.qmail@nym.alias.net>
From: Ramsey <ramsey@nym.alias.net>
To: cheesy21@email.com
Subject: Patti, My Friend
MIME-Version: 1.0

My Dearest Patti,

I looked at your board. It was interesting. I thank you for your 
posts. I can see, you spend a lot of time defending me. One of 
the responders to my post (which I might add, looked nice) stated 
that she believes me, Patricia. I think, if she saw some of my 
correspondences with one of my last friends, she would probably 
be convinced; God forbid. He was so hateful to me. He stopped 
writing to me. I think I will send one of his meanest letters to 
you. I want you to see how much people hate me. You know what? 
I've become numb to it all. He used to call me terrible names. I 
remember telling him things about myself; sensitive things. I was 
hoping to make him see that I was a real person. He insisted I 
was a terrible person. He also insisted that I was Patricia, 
hence, he addressed all his letters: "Dear Patricia". He also 
insisted that I wrote the ransom letter. Patti, I did not write 
that ransom letter; however, I assure you that it was merely a 
diversionary tactic.

I also saw some of your posts, when you were at your wits end 
with me. More than anything, you have been defensive of me with 
your friends; taking my part. Thank you, Patti.

I loved JonBenet. I think of her everyday. I go to her; now in 
her grave. Oh yes, she has risen and is an angel with Beth, but I 
feel her everloving presence at her grave. Did I tell you that I 
feel her spririt has followed me from her grave? It lasts for a 
few days. She does things to let me know she is close. If only I 
could have comforted her in her final hour. Then, there are those 
who firmly believe that I was there with her. Oh God, if only I 
could turn back time; my baby would be with me now.

Write to me here?